9.25.2013

a post in which i whine and bitch. (and also, evidently, rhyme.)

Ya'll, I'm tired.

And the audition tour hasn't happened yet.

Granted, I'm tired because there are a million awesome things going on...I was given the very heady opportunity to speak at my alma mater (cross that one off the bucket list!), and I started a program that will challenge me and get me more involved in my community. (Best thing? It's all new to me - people, concepts, all of it. It's a little opportunity for reinvention without having to move/switch jobs/create an alias.) I saw this last night (I have a bit of a conflicted relationship with the composer, but thought the performance was faboo.) and finally, after a nine-day-hiatus, got my flabby ass back to the gym.

(Wasn't pretty.)

I'm reminded that, when things get busy, it's so easy to lose discipline. (I don't think it's just me.)

And I'm also reminded that, when I lose discipline for longer periods of time, I feel like crapola.  Like a tub full of lukewarm crapola.

So today. We had a soft start to our audition season with colleagues at a local company. I had a decent lunch, and then I got a cookie the size of my face. And I ate it. And, obviously, I enjoyed the hell out of it.

My colleague is pursuing structure, discipline this fall. She eschewed the cookie. She went to the gym after work. After she left the office. To bike. To the gym. Because she is hardcore.

I clicked through to some photos of this past weekend, and realized that my chins have multiplied. Without me noticing, somehow.

(Now, this is not about size. It's about me not being happy about where I am, and not realizing how far off the mark I was until I saw proof...uncomposed, spontaneous photographic proof.)

So. New 30-day project will commence. No more eating trash that makes me feel like poo. Exercise. And - here's the kicker - planning for those things EVEN WHEN TRAVELING. I won't be able to do it 100%, but damn, I'm gonna try.

And yes. Leading by example works, even if you don't intend to lead. Many thanks to Ethel for getting Lucy's butt back to the gym.


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